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08 February 2010 @ 03:16 pm
// unsent #1: spoiled  
Dear you,

Its just so hard to find someone you can talk to that both calms you and takes your mind off of things. Maybe that's why I feel so left behind. I know it wasn't the intention.

And its all so silly because I probably don't mean much to you at all. My friend, my...complication. I don't know what you are anymore. I'd hit or ignore any other guy to call me "baby" or "lover." Not you, I'm not even sure why. Its all on this silly, stupid, unexplainable realm.

I do have others to talk to, often. I have plenty of female friends who I don't even blink twice at when they call me little things (darling, dear, lovey, doll). Who wrote these rules?

Its the long conversations I miss. Challenges to fuck up and find something the other may not like (though I seem to be better at that as you're more picky than I am).

Strange and random talks about nothing, music and everything.

But it comes down to one thing: I can't talk to you anymore.

It was nice when you rushed to talk to me, but those days are few the busier you get. I don't want to have to beg for your attention, as much as I missed it.

I think you spoiled me.
 
 
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Beccaphotocopyme on February 9th, 2010 02:21 am (UTC)
I need to finish my unsent letter....